Introducing Us
Collectively, we go by the name Lux or the Lux System. Our experience is pretty fluid and pretty much shared. We call ourselves polymedian because there are well over 100 of us and because we don't experience much dissociative differentiation between ourselves. That said we do know ourselves to be quite different from each other, even as we find comfort and support from the group’s company. Like a tree with many branches we are all part of us and we are also each uniquely ourselves.
I meet new system members all the time and sometimes it's hard to know who is speaking or who is around. Historically, some of us have spent more time at the front than others so they tend to be the ones who show up to run our day-to-day lives. Others of us are just now spending time at the front as ourselves (rather than pretending to be our host). The constant change and frequent not knowing used to stress us out (sometimes it still does) but as we build trust with ourselves we accept this as our normal state. It can even be fun.
Plurality is a spectrum and our experience lands somewhere in the middle space of the continuum. Though aspects resonate with us, we are not a system with DID or OSDD, nor are we a Core Self with orbiting, overburdened parts (a loose reference to Internal Family Systems). Simply put, we are us: many selves and beings moving forward and back from the conscious surface of a human being. Sometimes we picture our internal shape like a slowly revolving disco ball, where each mirrored facet is one of our faces. Sometimes that image sounds way too organized to represent our reality.
Often we write as a group. It’s a collective process that isn’t appropriately represented by the artifice of a single Author with a consistent voice. It's important to us to be able to link each of our names and our voices with our ideas, which is why we’re exploring writing plurally here.
Here is a non-exhaustive list of some of us who would like to be mentioned. There are many more of course. Images are created by us, Lux, on Artbreeder.
